The War/ Negativity

The war. My boyfriend (or kind of) is in the Afganistan, or as I fondly call it crapganistan. When he emails me never a negative word comes out of his mouth. Matter of fact, I and most everyone I know are more negative about stupid stuff than he is. He's baking in the desert away from the ones he loves, eating the same crappy food every day. I'm always like "eeh I have nohthing to eat, ehhhh I'm tired". I haven't been going on 6 day missions wondering if I would make it out with my life. I feel like a douchebag now that I think about it. He's such an insperation. I can't wait till he comes back, I will treat him as so he'll never have anything to complain about again.

Things To Get Better At

There are a lot of things I would really like to get better at:

1:Spending lots of time with God, and praying continually.
2:Having patience even when people get on my nerves :)
3:Writing/Journaling
4:Singing/Playing the Piano
5:Opening up to people.

I think those are 5 good things I can try and get down.

Things I'm good at:

1:Organizing
2:Making people feel good about themselves/cheering them up.
3:Cleaning
4:Managing Money
5:Making Lists

Tibet, My Love

My heart is still in Tibet. A piece of it anyways. I sort of never wanna take missions trips anywhere else! As wrong as that sounds, as long as there is work to do in Tibet, I want to help it get done. I need to commit to praying for that country more; because I can't be there physically it's all I can do. I love Tibet, I love it's people. So I'm totally free Tibet, but not in a political way (I'm not really anything in a political way). I can't wait to find out about an opportunity to serve there again.

Exerpt From The Shack

I really loved how this was worded.
"There is something joyful about storms that interrupt routine. Snow or freezing rain suddenly releases you from expectations, performance demands, and the tyranny of appointments and schedules. And unlike illness, it is largely a corporate rather than individual experience. One can almost hear a unified sigh rise from the nearby city and surrounding countryside where Nature has intervened to give respite to the weary humans slogging it out within her purview."
My mom highlighted this before I even read it, so I guess great minds think alike- but she's brilliant so I don't mind thinking like her!"

Music Is My Boyfriend

There is this song by CSS called Music Is My Hot Hot Sex. Ok, so not quite. But there is deep within me this passion for music. I love it. I love good music, and there is some bad music I can appreciate. I listen to music ALL DAY long. When I shower, when I drive, when I sleep. I love it. But my ipod which had upwards of 15,000 songs on it was stolen. Which to me was pure devastation. But I've really spent some good quiet time thinking and reflecting. SO music is my boyfriend, but it's been really cool to just think for a change without my thoughts being influenced as I'm thinking them. But I'm still trying to get another mp3 player quick ;)

My First Official Post

Ok, so this is the first one ever. I lie, I made a blog a little while back but it sucked so I started a new one. That's kind of how I work- I've never been one to scratch out a mistake and write over it. OH no I have to completely start over. I think I may have a perfectionistic piece, or as the disc test would say I'm a "precisionist"(CS). It sometimes makes things difficult, but I believe I do a good job when I do something. The catch is, usually if I don't feel like I'd be good at it I won't even start it :). So I just went on a really chill vacation. The day after I get there I find out 30 people (myself excluded) were layed off. I really thought my job was secure. So that kind of freaked me out, so I'll be looking for a 2nd job, something really part time, just to put away a few months rent. Having my own apartment (no roomate!) has been one of the best things ever, and I would really hate to lose it. Then again, I have incredible parents and moving back with them wouldn't be the end of the world. All this to say- I look ahead, sometimes too far, I need to trust God more than I trust myself, which is hard, because like i said before- I do a good job :). Oh the lessons He has in store for me.